Back To School We Go ( from homeschooling back to public)

I haven't had to worry about back to school shopping for 2 years.

My kids are going back to public school this year after being home schooled for the past 2 years. I have mixed emotions and feelings about it. There are things I like and advantages and disadvantages to both. 

The girls chose  to go back this year. I really struggled with what to do with my son and we have come across a path that has led us to him going to school and living with his grandma. It wasn't exactly an easy choice to make but it definitely feels like the right choice. 

Lots of changes going on and I hope that everything will turn out for the better. Who knows what will be in store for us next year. Homeschooling was a wonderful experience and I do not regret it!

My oldest daughter will be in seventh grade starting tomorrow. My youngest daughter will start third grade on Tuesday. My husband goes back to SLCC for Fall semester on Wednesday. My son will start 10th grade next Monday. I can't believe we'll have someone in Elementary school, Junior High (middle school, whatever you want to call it), High School and College. Let the fun and chaos begin.

She's growing up... 6 years today! (my first surrobaby)

Happy 6th Birthday to my dear sweet surrobaby. I cannot believe it's been 6 years now.

I gave birth to her in a military hospital and it was my first natural experience, because at that point there was not enough time for pain meds. Most of the pregnancy was different from my own which I thought was cool.

We celebrated a few days later by going to Disneyland. (we lived in CA at the time)

You can read more about her birth and see pictures in my 100th post: http://mormonsurrogate.blogspot.com/2010/08/my-100th-post-4-years-ago-today-august.html

August 1st will always be a special day for me!  :)

Surrogate Children Feeling Abandoned?

Back in April, a reporter from Deseret News approached me about doing an interview. I was super excited and I felt it went well. However, the article/interview was never published and every time I asked about it, I got no response.

It was in response to another article, so I will attach that here and then my thoughts and responses on the subject.

Do Mothers Matter?

ELIZABETH MARQUARDT - Elizabeth Marquardt is editor of FamilyScholars.org, as well as vice president for family studies and director of the Center for Marriage and Families at the Institute for American Values. She is the author, most recently, of One Parent or Five.

FEB 10 2012, 8:07 AM ET 164

http://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2012/02/do-mothers-matter/252676/

How surrogacy and egg donation, which first gained national attention in the 1980s, are bringing into the world a class of children beset by confusion, depression, and loss.

Do mothers matter? Having no mother was -- at least until recently -- widely agreed to be a tragedy. Psychiatric case studies, Disney movies, and well-known spirituals such as "Sometimes I Feel Like a Motherless Child" have testified to the importance of mothers and the pain of mother loss. But such views have not meant that every child has lived in a society that affirms the importance of the child's bond with his or her mother. Children have been denied their mothers because of class biases (see, poor); racial and ethnic biases (Indian, Aborigine); as part of severe civil conflict (Argentina, Dirty War); amid widespread, institutionalized human rights abuses (slavery); or because their mothers were rightly or wrongly perceived to be unfit (see: history of adoption, good, bad, and ugly).

Yet even as the broad history of helping ourselves to other people's children continues to be probed and largely condemned (except in the case of adoption, where most reasonable people agree that such an institution must exist in order to find loving homes for children in need of them), a newer and notably deliberate form of mother loss has sprung up, one that receives relatively little debate and is often presented as benign or even good, without question. I am referring, of course, to the practices of surrogacy and egg donation.

Most sperm donor-conceived persons strongly object to anonymous donation of sperm. Nearly half feel troubled by the role of money in their conception.

When surrogacy and egg donation first gained national attention in the 1980s the children in question usually had a social mother, a woman, herself infertile, married to a man and seeking to achieve pregnancy with the use of another woman's body. Today we are witnessing an equal opportunity run on deliberately conceiving motherless children. Men, alone or in pairs, can buy eggs and rent wombs, too. A child can be denied knowledge of and a relationship with his or her generally fit mother simply because other adults -- the child's prospective legal parents -- wish it to be so, and are willing to pay to make it so. These transactions occur with the aid of doctors, lawyers, and clinics licensed by the state, and thus with tacit approval from the state.

I wrote about some of these new single fathers by choice in my recent report, "One Parent or Five: A Global Look at Today's New Intentional Families." There is Ian Mucklejohn, father of three. In 2001, at the age of 54, the British citizen became the father of triplets conceived with an egg donor and a gestational surrogate mother, both living in the U.S. Mucklejohn soon became a hero for other single fathers-to-be when he won British citizenship and birth certificates with a blank in the space for "mother" for all three children.

Or look to in India where, in 2005, a middle-aged accountant, Amit Banerjee, became that nation's first known single father by choice. His doctor enthused that the new father "was a perfect candidate for ART. As a physician I could not deny him the available technology that hundreds of childless couples are opting to fulfill their dreams of a family." A reporter asked, what about the child's loss of ever knowing his mother? The doctor replied with a question: "What about a child whose mother dies on the delivery bed?" In other words, some children already begin life under the gravely tragic circumstances of their mother dying in childbirth. Is it not the right of would-be parents intentionally to create such children -- and is it not the obligation of doctors to help them do it?

Single fathers by choice are found in the U.S. too. Andy Abowitz, a "successful, single gay man living in Philadelphia," twice paid a 25-year-old doctoral student to donate her eggs and a gestational surrogate to carry the pregnancy, resulting in a girl and, 20 months later, twin boys. The egg donor enthused, "I think it's really fantastic when children are born into situations where they're wanted that much." And while it's true that Abowitz seems to want the children very much, how will the children make sense of an egg donor and surrogate mother who did not want them? How will they even make sense of what "mother" means when they have a genetic mother and a separate birth mother, neither of whom are in their daily lives?

Sometimes it is two men rather than one who conceive this way. Picking an egg donor and a surrogate, gay couples from the obscure to the wildly famous -- examples include Elton John and David Furnish, or Neil Patrick Harris and David Burtka -- can do this too. Generally moneyed and armed with a team of baby nurses, nannies, and house cleaners, most of these fathers probably do fine in providing material comfort, opportunity, and a loving home for the children. But what about the children? Do their mothers matter to them?

We are now learning more than ever before about the experience of an arguably similar class of children, those deliberately denied their biological fathers via sperm donation. In studies such as "My Daddy's Name is Donor: A New Study of Young Adults Conceived Through Sperm Donation," which I co-investigated with University of Texas sociology professor Norval Glenn and donor-conceived adult Karen Clark; or in stories posted at the popular AnonymousUs.org website; or found in a newly-released documentary, Anonymous Father's Day, we are hearing that being deliberately denied your father can be both painful and bewildering, especially in a society that says your loss should not matter.

Based on a representative sample, in "My Daddy's Name is Donor" we reported that most sperm donor-conceived persons strongly object to anonymous donation of sperm. Nearly half feel troubled by the role of money in their conception. Most want to know about their biological father's family, and they wonder if that family would want to know about them. Compared to their peers raised by biological parents, sperm donor-conceived persons are more likely to struggle with delinquency, addiction, and depression.

Clearly, at least some of these kids are not really all right. It seems entirely plausible that at least some conceived never to know their mothers might share the feelings of the sample in our study. For decades we have debated whether fathers matter. Must we now debate whether mothers matter, too?

My Response:

My thoughts on the article:

I was not aware of this. I had no idea.  Surrogates are called Surrogate Mothers, but really we're only 9 month nannies. Once these babies are born, they are returned to their families. As a gestational surrogate, I was in no way genetically linked to the babies I carried. I was just baking someone else's ingredients, like cookie dough as I explain it in my chilldren's book, Once Upon a Surrogate: The Stork's helpers.

Gestational Surrogates shouldn't be compared to adoptive mothers. We are only carrying what is already someone else's baby. 

I can't speak for egg & sperm donors or traditional surrogates, but the same applies, even though they are genetically related to the baby(s), those babies are intended for another family.  In the majoriity of these cases, these people are generously providing an important ingredient that the babys' genetic parents desperately need. Without these generous people, these babys wouldn't be brought to life.

Same with gestational surrogates. Though in that case, both parents usually have the ingredients needed, they just are not able to carry the baby to term themselves.

It's important to note that some intended parents don't even tell their baby(s) that they were born of a surrogate mother. This could be because of culture, social class or other personal reasons. 

Perhaps it is important for these children to know early on their unique story. And maybe it's a good idea for them to know the surrogates, egg donors, and sperm donors involved, even if it's at a distance. 

It is sad to think that some of these children are struggling. They need to know that part of their story is a love story. Even though these children did not come to be the traditional way, they were very much loved and wanted. So much that other people were willing to step in and help.

These babies were never ours to begin with. They were created for the loving families that yearned for them.

With my first surrogacy, we were in the same state, but miles apart. Shortly after the birth, I moved away. Since then the parents have moved a few times. I have only seen her the day she was born. I went home from the hospital the next day. I have however kept in touch and I've seen her grow up through pictures. I don't think she'll ever know that she had a surrogate mom.

With my surro-twins, they were in the hospital here in Utah for 7 weeks, so I got some time to see them after the birth.  After they went home, I didn't see them until they were about a year and a half. Our family went on vacation and stopped by for a visit.

Not all surrogates stay in touch with the families. It depends on the relationship, personal preferences and I'd imagine, location. Either side can also decide at any time that they will not longer keep in touch.

Double Feature- A Match Made in Heaven

I want to introduce you to both sides of the surrogacy world- the intended parent and the surrogate. But it doesn't end there. There are intended parents, plural and then there's the surrogate's husband. It's all a team effort. This story focuses on the surrogate and the intended mom.

I've spoken before about how important it is to find a good match. I want to introduce you to Hope (LDS Intended Parent of a Baby Conceived through Surrogacy) and Vanessa (A day in the life of a perfectly imperfect perfectionist)

They found each other on Craigslist of all places! They were a great match, which I would call a Match Made in Heaven. They are both LDS and they got permission from the 1st presidency to pursue surrogacy. How great is that? I hope that their story(s) will bring hope to others looking into surrogacy who are LDS and may have questions and concerns.

Most surrogacy journeys are not 100% smooth from day one. There will always be ups and downs and snags.  Hope and Vanessa had a great relationship and blogged about it all, including the ups and downs. I loved their honesty and I loved that they publicly claimed each other.

This was Vanessa's first surrogacy and she gave birth to a baby boy- Spencer on July 1, 2012 Congratulations to you all!

I wanted to be really profound with this blog post, but I didn't want to take too long to post it. Please visit their blogs and let their stories speak for themselves.

For Vanessa's stance on surrogacy and the LDS religion and to read more about what the 1st presidency has to say go here: -- http://myamundson5.blogspot.com/2011/10/my-position-regarding-surrogacy.html 

Proud of my Utah Surrogate Friends

Once upon a time I was the only surrogate I knew of in Utah. Although I started out as a surrogate in California when my husband was in the Navy. Of course, back then it was barely legal to do surrogacy in Utah. Now I am amazed at how many Utah surrogates are popping up. Yay! Last year I was invited to become part of a local surrogate group. We get together once a month, although I admit I've only gone a few times. *Note to self- need to go more. 


Two of the lovely girls that are part of the Utah surrogate group were recently featured (as in today) in the Deseret News:

http://www.deseretnews.com/article/865558867/Free-Lunch-Two-women-nine-months-and-the-gift-of-family.html

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Free Lunch: Two women, nine months and the gift of family

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By Cathy Free, Deseret News

Published: Wednesday, July 11 2012 12:16 p.m. MDT

Ryley Eaton, left, and her friend, Jen Holt, became surrogate mothers to "pass along the joy of becoming a family," says Eaton.

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Two Utah women become surrogate mothers to give infertile couples the experience of having a family.

MURRAY — The tears came late at night when the hospital room was quiet and she was alone for the first time in months.

There were tears of happiness for the couple who were finally cuddling a baby of their own, the boy she had given birth to just a few hours before. And there were also tears of sadness — not because she regretted her decision to become a surrogate mother, but because one of the most wonderful experiences of her life was over.

"When you've been the focus of somebody's life for nine months and that suddenly ends, it hits you hard and it hurts," says Ryley Eaton. "The couple whose child you carried has lived and breathed you for months — your life and well-being has been their entire focus. But once the baby is here, that all ends. Before you can blink, the journey is over."

Eaton, 29, was relieved to find a small support network of women who have also made the emotional journey as surrogate mothers, or, as they're legally known in Utah, "gestation carriers." Once a month, about 20 members of Utah Surrogates gather at a restaurant or park to share tales of what it's like to give the gift of family to couples unable to conceive on their own.

"Our conversations definitely raise a few eyebrows in restaurants," admits Eaton, who wanted to meet for a Free Lunch of chili verde burritos at Restaurant Morelia in Murray with Jen Holt, another surrogate who has become a good friend. "There are so many misconceptions about what we do that it's nice to have somebody to talk to who understands."

The emotional highs and lows of surrogacy are worth it, says Holt, 32, to pass along the same joys she has experienced while raising her four children, ages 3 to 13.

"To see the look on (a couple's) faces when their baby is handed to them and they become parents after so many years of heartache — nothing can compare to that," she says. "It's a life-changing moment.”

A volunteer photographer for "Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep," a charity that provides keepsake photos of infants who were stillborn or died shortly after birth, Holt appreciated seeing a happy outcome for the parents whose child she carried after in vitro fertilization.

"I saw an aunt struggle with infertility for years, so this is something I've always thought about doing," she says. "After I was done having kids, I decided, ‘Why not go through another pregnancy — this time for somebody else?’ ”

After meeting with an attorney who specializes in reproductive law, Holt was put in touch with a local couple and became pregnant through IVF a few months later, at about the same time as Eaton, who had agreed to carry a child for an infertile couple from China.

As the mother of a 3-year-old son, "I love every aspect of service," says Eaton, "but I don't have a lot of money and I'm not handy with a saw. However, I love being pregnant and I do have a uterus that works. This is something I could do that would make a lasting difference in another family's life."

Although their spouses were supportive of their desire to become surrogates, Eaton and Holt became accustomed to shocked reactions from people wondering how they could "give away” the babies they were carrying.

“It’s hard to explain,” says Eaton, “but from the very beginning, I knew that he wasn’t mine, so I wasn’t as attached. Once he was born, he felt more like a nephew or the child of a close friend.”

Today, she and Holt carry photos of the boys they delivered and they hope to fill up several photo albums in the years to come.

“They’re not required to keep in touch with us, but we’re each lucky in that we’ve developed a lasting connection,” says Eaton, who plans to go through IVF again so that the boy she brought into the world can have a sibling. “We’re in their photo albums, too. Playing a part in giving them a family has been one of the most rewarding experiences of my life.”

Have a story? Let's hear it over lunch. Email your name, phone number and what you'd like to talk about tofreelunch@desnews.com

Cathy Free has written her "Free Lunch" column since 1999, believing that everyone has a story worth telling. A longtime Western correspondent for People Magazine, she has also worked as a contributing editor for Reader's Digest.